And here we are

Thirty four weeks today. Amazing, absolutely amazing that I have made it this far.
To be quite honest the last four weeks have gone by in a flash. I feel kind of like time is moving like a lightening bolt. Day to day not so much. I literally take things hour by hour.

I am completely overwhelmed with all things going on in my life. The babies, they are doing well. I go for twice weekly monitoring. That makes me a little more reassured but I won't feel confident until those boys are out and breathing on their own. Baby A is a wild child, very active and gets the hiccups A LOT. Baby B is very mellow and does his own thing. He takes practice breathes when he wants, he moves only when he wants (even after buzzers and bells). Baby B does things in his own time. It is interesting to see the differences in personality when they aren't even on the outside yet.

I am beginning to believe that maybe, just maybe in two short weeks we will have living babies to take home although I am not totally certain. Two weeks seems like a lifetime when you look at all the things going on in my life but in terms of gestating two kids it's nothing. Health wise things haven't been all that bad. My BG has been relatively stable though it's not as good as the endo wants my perinatologist is very happy. The endo can go back to doing his thing for right now as we seem to be doing just fine without his help (I am a little tweaked with the endo). Hour by hour we take things in our house, hour by hour.

Yesterday I had another discussion with the PA (that I love) at the peri's office. These two little guys (actually big guys) are supposed to arrive on December 14, 2011. We had planned for a scheduled c-section because both boys were breech and I was totally certain that our family would be complete after this pregnancy. Turns out hour by hour is how we need to live. Both babies are now head down (YEAH) but that also means that I have the option to deliver (induced) the way I had originally planned. Easier on me, MAY be easier on the babes but also creates other issues. If I have the scheduled section, we know the babies will be out in two to three minutes if need be. I can have my tubes tied and if their are ANY other problems I am already numb and set-up to be helped. If I let my body do it's thing there is no telling what could happen. I don't numb well and I don't exactly heal all that well either. Birth with my daughter was fairly easy as births go. I only pushed for 30 minutes and she was born healthy other than the cleft. I just don't know...I am waiting for my peri to return from Italy to get a feeling what he thinks I ought to do. We all want these babies here as safely as possible and if Dr. H. has a feeling one way or another than I would rather go that way.

I am beginning to get excited about the boys arrival but I am also a bit scared. A lot of cards have to fall into place just right. I know for a fact that I have no control over how any of this falls into place and that is the hardiest part of all.